A Love Letter to my Body (Part One)

Monday, March 25, 2013





I saw a few blogs online that were challenging other women to write a love letter to their body and I thought oh what a nice idea I could  do that... So I read a few other blogger's post and thought Yes its easy so let's do this .........................................

So I am here sitting at my desk, my fingers poised over the keyboard and  ......Nothing

Why is it so hard to do this ....It reminds me of a deep cut I once had and my Mom getting my aunt to come over and clean it and the pain of bearing the inside raw flesh to water and the not so gentle hands of my aunt ...Well you must get what I'm saying ...............

But this is something I need to do ...I need to expose the rawness of what I need to say........You need to hear from my heart what I want to say to you....So I went to my mirror and I looked closely at myself and and saw my body as though it was someone else and I had to see all the good and compliment it .....I ran my fingers over my face and traced each wrinkle and then the shape of my smile ...My smile that I haven't seen in such a long time ...

I was reminded of the song by Brandi Carlile The Story and the first four lines were...... "All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am"..... So this is  part one of my love letter to my body




Dear Body
I am so thankful for everything you do for me ...I thank you for being there for me all these years ...We have been through so much together and sometimes I have neglected and misused you ....Sometimes through no direct fault of mine you have been abused and called names that no one should have to endure.....But yet you didn't give up .......

First I want to tell you how sorry I am for all the times I hated you and said mean things to you .....I need to tell you how sorry I am for calling you old looking and fat...I need to say I'm sorry for all the years I smoked and gave you wrinkles and made you sick inside...I'm also sorry for always being dissatisfied with the way you looked.

I'm sorry for all the times I didn't walk when I could have and for all the times I just laid around and slowly made you sick ....I am truly sorry for all the pain that was afflicted on you because of choices I made ..I am sorry for the scars that mark you ...... I have neglected you for so long ...I only hope you can forgive me......
 Love Me

Linking with  The Love Dare




7 comments:

Jennifer Dougan said...

Kat,

I'm peaking in here -- hopping over from Emily's Love Dare link up. Thanks for letting me stop in.

Your line "I am sorry for the scars that mark you" most grabbed my attention. Yes, both inside and out, we have them, huh? Thank you.

Have a great week. :)

Jennifer Dougan
www.jenniferdougan.com

Kat said...

Thank You for dropping by ....I figured if I was going to write a letter to my body I first owed it some deep I'm sorrys.... Please come visit again

danae said...

i love how not just your letter is honest & vulnerable but that you shared how difficult it was to write it, too! also, i saw your post below it about fibromyalgia. i have it too! and being only 31 & experiencing it in some form or another for over a decade, especially since age 28, i get alot of the same judgements... thank you for sharing that article. it helps ME understand it better!

shine on!
danae<><

Kat said...

Thank you Danae .....I just recently got diagnosed with Fibromyalgia but I have been dealing it for the past 2 yrs ....I found it very hard to write my letter and I still haven't said all I need to say ...Thanks again and I wish for pain free days for you :)
Kat

danae said...

thank you also for coming by my blog. i don't know if everyone comes back too see what i reply, so i'll repeat it here :) -- even if you're not a church-goer or bible-reader, we all value something as sacred, & i think our bodies should be part of that in some way -- be challenged! be inspired! i know it's stretching me far beyond my limits :)

and thank you for the sweet wishes. they are definitely returned to you. keep writing.

danae<><

Emily Wierenga said...

Oh Kat... this is a beautiful, heartbreaking post. I love how tenderly you speak to yourself. Truly, this is a work of art. Thank you so much for linking with The Love Dare. Bless you. e.

Kat said...

Thank you so much for your kind words...I'm not sure if I'm doing it right but I felt like my love letter to myself was so much I wanted to do it in parts ....It was very hard for me to do this ...I have hated myself for so long for some reason or another but thanks to your link I am starting a journey to love me Thank You again
Kat

 

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