What am I Becoming

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Hi everyone
I am sorry I haven't been here for awhile but I have been dealing with a lot of pain from the fibromyalgia and other personal things and it has left me so exhasted ......

I am dealing with pain daily now and sometimes its almost unbearable ......This pain is changing me  ... I am becoming so tired and feeling so old ...It seems my mind is ready to snap ... I am so sick of starting new meds and then finding out the hope of them working is in vain .....

How much pain can a person deal with .... It scares me that this is my lot in life now and before I can even wish for a cure I have to wish that fibromyalgia will be defined and understood in whole .... I am finally getting sleep but I wake in the morning with my body so tender and stiff ... Its like someone has been beating me all night long ......

I don't like going outside anymore and these days I can just manage to get the basic housework done ...... I am so drugged and I don't even know why .... I guess its too keep the pain from being worst then what it is ....... I have become to take a closer look at my life and see what I need to change just in case this is some kinda punishment from the universe .....

I know Im babbling now but I just want to get how Im feeling out ........ Please if anyone reads this keep me in your thoughts and yes this is going to come from me even your prayers ........ Along with the stress of my personal problem I just need some releif from all of this ...........

2 comments:

Angela said...

It sounds bad to have to live with so much pain. I presume you have already consulted specialists on the subject. Have you tried alternative medicine? I sure will put you in the prayer list.

Kat said...

Yes I have tried both and Thank You

 

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